i forgot i had this thing

me: http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/
free movie
and an explanation as to why i refuse to have a bank account
evilkassi: happy birthday,
me: also HI KASSI I LOVE AND MISS YOU
oh thanks :D
evilkassi: Im sorry im late
but i haven't seen you online
and im just damn slow
so think of this as the candian observation
<3
me: eh i dont care
evilkassi: I CARE, BITCHES
me: the thing is, i see it as celebration of the one time my penis was in my mother's vagina, and that's weird

In other news, things are going splendidly well. Kim and i are great, i love my job, and my apartment is slowly being converted into a brewery. I'm moving to All Grain brewing. Google it for info.

Spoke to my dad on the phone earlier. He emailed on my birthday to say a card was on the way, and i've yet to receive it. I told him it was just a card, i didnt care. He said "I care about that hundred bucks. That was for you to take Kim out!" Then we started talking politics.

He's kind of starting to dislike Bush, although he wont admit it outright. Just hints here and there. When he asked who i was voting for, i explained how my vote didnt matter in Chicagobama, and that i was writing in Ron Paul. I also mentioned that i WOULD have voted for McCain had he not chosen Sarah Palin. He's getting wise in his years, as he giggled and said "Palin is my hero." i asked why, he said "She winks a lot, which means she lies a lot." He's still voting GOP in November, but with a little bit of hesitation.

I still, to this day, find it amusing that i grew up in a household where my father voted straight Republican and my mother straight Democrat (mom dont fight this, you're a liberal, it's ok.) I also find it funny that i was a liberal until i was actually able to grasp concepts like the Free Market and Globalization and othersuch issues. I'm not a republican or a democrat...i kinda fall inline with Libertarians to an extent, but even that isnt right. I kinda just wanna be left alone to find my own happiness.

Oh, and i sure as shit dont want to fucking pay for the bail out of banks, not that i have a choice, apparently.

And if you want to know why i still refuse to get a bank account, go see http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/

thnx for birthday wishes guys, imma go listen to the debates <3

NickolausPacione: You're willing to pass off fiction after fiction about me as fact, you know that's fucking slander right?

me: oh, good morning

NickolausPacione: Fuck off man

me: i was just typing up a response

NickolausPacione: I know your deal. FUCK OFF PRICK
How long do you and your fuckbuddy pathogen plan to slander my name around Chicago?

me: Anyway, if you'll allow me to finish, you did indeed rectify the cover art situation, which is commendable

NickolausPacione: I bet the only sex you get in your life is from your own mother asshole.

me: and indeed, ED is full of lies

NickolausPacione: The truth is already presented -- and you can borrow that book from the faggot.

me: And i would even wager not everything on there about you is true

NickolausPacione: So you can see where I am actually the investegative and willing to put that answer book out there.

me: However, i based my comments on posts and interactions i've seen of yours

NickolausPacione: hence my oopen hostility with Pathogen.

me: Well sure, what ED DOESNT say is that you probably didnt know the artwork was copywrited

NickolausPacione: That's already a stated fact that he and I hate each other -- the fag actually got Something Awful breathing down my neck and they accused me of plagiarism in turm that was his shit.

me: See, i know nothing of that, so i cant comment on it
You'll find i'm quite rational, actually

NickolausPacione: I am just hostile with the honesty. I am not shy to not back down.
you should know that about me from being in Chicago.
I don't back down from anyone but try to avoid the fist fight because I know I can hurt someone.
They don't tell you I got published with Withersin and with Tales of the Talisman -- sold my work a few times. A small press fixture.
You should know there was always a hostility with some dj's and writers for a long while.

me: I've never read your work, so again, i cant comment on it
And like i originally said, i'm only mildly involved in "the scene" and i choose to stay away from the drama and politics involved

NickolausPacione: Well look up my print exclusive work if you really want to see what I do.
I tore apart the politics in a short story
I am a metalhead and you should see where Goths don't exactly get along well with metalheads.
I am from that literary aspect of the Gothic Subculture that is well ignored.
the side that is more Richard Mathesn and Stephen King than Anne Rice or Poppy

me: Doesnt interest me, i'm neither, i'm comfortable staying home and not getting involved
Look. Brass tacks
I based my post about you from the interactions i've seen with other people, which dont lend much credibility to you not being a prick.
You might not be a prick
I dont know, maybe you're just very defensive

NickolausPacione: I just tend to have unpopular views.

me: Well, so do i, but i dont run around yelling my internet head off about assholes and motherfucking and faggots

NickolausPacione: When I really went at it with someone in the subculture was when I published the fourth Tabloid Purposes, Carrie Monster insuilted my involvement in the small press and I challenged her to try her hand as an editor to see what happens.
It was more a bet to see if she could do it.
She took great offense to it because I am from the very same area she is from originally.
I told her, "She rips on me she ripped on an entire area where she originated."

me: Eh, doesnt concern me

NickolausPacione: I am defensive because of the plagiarism accusations being thrown around. I used to live with the Crasy bitch Russo.
so since then I became a little more hostile in some of my responses.

me: Which is your right, just be aware of the reaction you'll get from it

NickolausPacione: Maybe you can explain something with Pathogen -- has anyone up and punched him for some of the things he said.

me: What he does and says is his business

NickolausPacione: You say he's 'good people' bot I've seen his kind -- I end up face punching them.
Someone similar to him put me through a bus window as some sick joke

me: I also said he's a loud mouth, if you'll recall

NickolausPacione: loud mouth slanderous peice of fuck I take it.

me: Slander happens on the internet, it's kind of par for the course

NickolausPacione: I was a loud mouth but I also had a reputation of being a brawler in real life.
A loud mouth like him is a brawl waiting to happen.

me: I could argue that you slandered me by saying i have sex with him.
But i'm not going to act out because of it

NickolausPacione: But when he accused me of plagiarism I called him on it.
I wanted him to say to me face to face -- then have someone friendly with him to suggest him t park his car in the projects, then I tape his car getting stripped.

me: See, again, this is where you fail. This is why you're referred to as an Internet Tough Guy
"oh man, someone said something mean, i'm going to beat him up"

NickolausPacione: I am actually am one of those tough types in person.

me: With all due respect, what are you, 12?
Right, and those tough guys are pricks

NickolausPacione: I am 32 -- I got hit by a car and cased the fucker.
I got up and chased the fucker.
not exactly a prick -- just don't take any shit from anyone.

me: No, you've definatly moved from standing up for yourself to prick
That's my stance until proven otherwise
Sent at 10:37 AM on Tuesday

me: You're not someone i want to associate with because you're an irrational, defensive, petulant man-child.
So you leave me alone, i'll leave you alone.
Deal?

NickolausPacione: I will back off of you but if you say something to my face, I will put you on your ass. Deal?
I will back off you but Pathogen -- is fair game.
The faggot proved that by going too far

me: I dont care what you say to pathogen. it doesnt concern me.

NickolausPacione: But one slanderous thing on your blog about me -- I will start saying the only sex you get is from your own mother.
you got a deal.

me: Which is a lie, and is slander.
You can add hypocrite to that list a few lines up.
But, deal.

NickolausPacione: Not slander -- a smart ass remark that is beyond insulting. IT's calling you a mother fucker.
without saying mother fucker.

me: I wouldnt call it smart.
Anyway, i'm going to post this conversation, word for word, on my blog, as a matter of public record.
Are you ok with that?

NickolausPacione: hell the fuck no

me: Why not?
Sent at 10:42 AM on Tuesday

NickolausPacione: fine go ahead but tell the bitch Serpent Skirts that it's believing a bunch of lies.
Sent at 10:43 AM on Tuesday

So i'm just this guy that likes brewing beer and playing with modular synths. I happen to help Chicago's very own Kinetic Productions in running audio for the shows they do for a modest sum. Other than the one time i made E-Craft really mad, i do a pretty good job. I'm pretty friendly with the Kinetic cats, we're friends, but i try to stay clear of "scene politics and drama" because really, i dont fucking care. I dont care about making scene friends or knowing scene people. I dont care about who dates who or who fucked who or who hates who. In fact, i usually just skim over scene related posts and such, even stuff i'm somewhat related to, because i dont care.

Well, except for not_eurotic's Tales From The Seat Of The Music Buisness Lay-Z-Boy, because, well, just because.

Anyway, that said, pathogen is probably my bestest pal out of that crew. He's a loud-mouthed dork, but he's good people. This mouth-breather goth scene writer guy named Nickolaus Pacione has a "beef" with him. He's not like one of those "I dont like that guy, so i'm going to badmouth him" kind of guys. He's a crazy, trys to dig up information and uses pseudonyms to stage fake interviews to get more information, steals other people's artwork, batshit insane fool.

Think i'm making this up?

Ok, who do you know that actually has a page devoted to his antics on Encyclopedia Dramatica?

Anyway, he's come out of hibernation to start spewing shit to people again, and in the chicago_gothic journal i mentioned i was reading this moron's ED entry and it made me laugh.

So naturally, because the internet is SERIOUS BUSINESS, i got a myspace message from Nickolaus with the subject line "Fuck your father much?" and body of "Asshole."

My first reaction was to just delete it, my second was to reply. However, in attempting to send my reply, i learned that apparently i must be friends with him in order to send him messages. This is something i'm not willing to do. So i'm posting this here.

Dear Nickolaus,

Thanks for the warm words! The oatmeal-raisin cookies you sent me were delicious, and all of my bunkmates loved them too! Camp Chippewaea is so much fun!! Cody and i made macaroni picture frames! And we drank a LOT of bug juice...Timmy threw up in the canoe after lunch yesterday...ewwwwww! We're going on a nature hike tomorrow, and then the talent show is on Sunday. I cant wait to get back to tell you all my camp stories!

Love,

-Adam

P.S. You're a fucking idiot, go away. I want nothing to do with you.


Also, since we in the states are in a free-market economy, please choose not to spend your money on his books, e-books, or anything from his publisher as well.

EDIT: I dont know if this is related or not, but i just got a message on AIM/Gmail chat from Vote Hitlary08. Text as follows:

Vote: your posts have been stolen: http://fractalnoise.on.nimp.org/?u=r4l
me: kthx
Vote: sup girl lets nuggle
me: is that english?
Vote: i think so
so what do you say?
me: to what?
Vote: put on a good movie and nuggle?
me: nah, i'm on my period
Vote: what movies do you like?
me: midget porn
Vote: Im a gentleman. When I say nuggle I really mean tender snuggling
Oooooo girl you're freaky
I like that
me: I put on my robe and wizard hat

I finished the sequencer. Here's a vid.

http://s48.photobucket.com/albums/f218/lizabennet2/modular/?action=view¤t=DSCF1077.flv

Today i picked some homegrown hops for beer brewing.

Now i'm wiring all the pots on my sequencer, listening to Coil, and drinking absinthe.



i dont have much else to say.

Dark Knight was awesome
seeing Matmos live was awesome
getting a raise after a month is awesome
the new Plan B ELF modules are awesome

wiring the Voice Of Saturn sequencer is NOT awesome

kim saying "Let's buy a theremin for the apartment" is awesome.

happy birthday uther

anyone wanna come over this afternoon and help me bottle my beer?

Roller Derby aside, Kim woke up this morning with food poisoning. After calling off of work, she vomited all day, and then KEPT HER TATTOO APPOINTMENT AND GOT HER BACKPIECE OUTLINE DONE.

HOLY SHIT.


edit: Also,

so kim and i went to Dubois, Pennsylvania for a Vavrick family reunion for the 4th. Got to see my uncles and their families. Not all of them showed up because they're jerks (it runs in the family, you see.) But, it was my dad and his wife (duh, their house), my dad's brothers randy, mark, and johnny, and his sister mandy, plus their wives/husband/children. My cousins were neat to see. Michelle is 16 now, which is crazy, because i remember her being born. We got along very well, and it was cute when kim asked when she saw me last. She said "I dont really remember, but i DO remember he had purple hair." Samantha is 12, again, weird....i remember holding her the week she was born. Shane is 15, and has a sister that i met for the first time...i didnt know she existed. Everyone was happy to see me, and i them. I love my family a lot, and if i were to ever regret one thing in my life, it would be avoiding them for so long. The Vavricks are a fantastic clan, i'm happy to have their blood in me. They all loved kim, and kim got along with them swimmingly.

As for the weekend, dad and cherie live on a lake in a pretty large house, so the weekend was filled with beer, swimming, fishing (i caught 2 bass and 2 perch), grilling, dry sarcastic humor, pool, stories, love, and fireworks.

We drove home today, and made a spontaneous decision to stop and have lunch in Cleveland at the Great Lakes Brewing Company's brewpub. I recommend that place to everyone, it was great. The food was delicious, the bullet holes in the wall made by Eliott Ness (yes, THAT Eliott Ness) were clearly marked, and the brewpub only beers were delicious (For the record, i had the Independance Red Ale, and kim had the Lorelei Wheat)

i didnt get sunburned this time, i wore sunblock. I am a little pinkish though. I'll post pictures once i get them.

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want -- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

So, i downloaded this Tool recording. Live in Poughkeepsie, New York, 3/1/1997.

And i'm amazed.

I can close my eyes and picture myself standing next to twig at the Nissan Pavillion somewhere in Virginia, seeing Tool while high and on the lam from my parents, raising our arms towards the stage and wrapping a hand around our elbows, showing how deep within the borderline we were. It was so hot and they had lemonade and the singer from James gave me his shirt and there was a beautiful girl and more drugs and a...a sense of freedom.

Sometimes i miss those days. Not the drugs and not the horrible home life and not the inexperience but just the feeling.


Just that feeling.

me: trevor
Our: Lionel
me: NICE
Alastair
Our: Cecil
me: Ferngully: The Last Rainforest
Our: The Fearless Vampire Killers: Or Pardon Me But Your Teeth Are In My Neck
me: Cool Runnings
Our: Guarding Tess
me: Stop! Or My Mom Will Shoot
Our: Joe's Apartment
me: Biodome
Our: Uncle Buck
me: What About Bob?
Our: Stripes
me: The Sandlot
Our: Shaggy 2 Dope
me: Shaq-Fu
Our: Eternal Champions
me: Surf Ninjas
Our: 3 Ninjas
me: 3 Ninjas 2: Kickback
Our: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles II: The Secret of the Ooze
me: Suburban Commando
Our: Huey Lewis & The News - Sports
and by the way you only said suburban commando because it was in the previews from the VHS
me: at least i didnt mention that commercial
i play riiiighhhht fieeeelllld
wouldnt ya know?
ya gotta learn how ta cetch
ya gotta learn how ta throw
Our: this is a story about my family
me: !!!!!
Our: i want to see the other movie that was in the previews before it on VHS
me: Huh huh HA HA
Our: but i cant remember the title
me: the one with the hot chick
Our: it was a girl
this is my dad
me: and the millions of kids
Our: this is my step mom
me: YES
THATS THE ONE
Our: this is my sister
these are my step
yes
i think you might be the only person in the world
that knows what im talking about.
me: yep
i remember in the preview
Our: i wish i knew what movie that was
or who was in it
me: the hot girl laughing
Our: yes
me: to this day
i still say Dammmmmmmn Straight
Stepkids?
Our: ahahaha HOLY FUCK
me: i win at life
Our: http://www.askmehelpdesk.com/movies/movie-title-step-kids-54978.html
me: no wonder i could never find it as Step Kids
Our: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0101444/
ahahahahahaha
fuckin trailer
ahahhaahah
http://www.imdb.com/video/screenplay/vi1538916633/
not the same one
i tested for dioxides
me: theres a second trailer?!!?
Our: i remember a cabin
me: oh man
Our: this is the same one
just spit on my hand
do you love daddy
daaamnn straight
not evne on there
me: hahaha
Sent at 12:13 AM on Tuesday
me: this has to be the best conversation ever
Our: my brain just exploded.
i think about that movie so much.
me: netflix have it?
Our: and nevre looked into it because i figured it was a total loss
no idea i dont use netflix
me: ok i'll check
http://www.netflix.com/Search?v1=Big%20Girls%20Don%27t%20Cry%20...%20They%20Get%20Even&search_submit.x=0&search_submit.y=0
ta da
Sent at 12:15 AM on Tuesday
Our: you wont